Smile through it all
I've lost the feeling of having a dad. It's pretty much all gone. I only remember his voice. I don't even remember what he looks like. Its been a while. I remember the days where he would always take us out to go eat PHO. That's why pho is one of my favourite food:) brings me memories.
My papa would cum home with bags of apples as well man. He'd cut them up for me too:')
I always wonder why. Why the heo would he leave us. I don't understand. I don't understand anything.
I wouldn't say I'm unlucky. Every thing has a reason right?. I just want to know why. That's all I really want to know. I regret what I didn't do back then. I'm so stupid. If.. if I had said something, would he have changed his mind? Does he even know how we feel about this? We're left to be independent. It's too hard. All these years, cuming home to no one, cuming home to past memories, cuming home to silence. He brought me to this fucked up world and he just leaves. It's not fair.
I'll do anything to bring him back. I'll try hard in school, I'll be a good girl. If only I had more time, so that I could tell him everything that I'm thinking about this very moment. I need him. I'm not saying it's his fault either. Although he doesn't love mum no more, he didn't have to leave Adelaide. He has a home, he didn't have to leave.Why couldn't he just stay put:(
Daddy's little girl needs a big hug. FUCK pms:'( fuckfuckfuckityfuckfuckfuck
FUCK my life, just gotta smile through it all........
:)
meow
(0) comments
Posted on: Monday, June 27, 2011
